Introduction

Hello!
Welcome to Potpourri! I am an aspiring young person who wants to express and grow creatively. I want to write and get my thoughts heard. This is my blog. I am not actually going to write about dried up flower petals which are commonly known as potpourri... this is simply a collection of my thoughts. Sorry if I am boring you already.... I'll try to do better. As I write, you might come to the conclusion that I am a couch potato who eats lots of ice cream and watches "Sex and the City" all day.... and you are probably right. However, there is more to me than there seems. I hold passion close to my heart. Passion for people. Passion for tennis. Passion for animals. Passion for food. And passion for the sacred, honest, and modest moments one experiences. These are the moments I have learned to keep safe and never let go of. My blog will tell the story of how I came to learn this. My blog will tell my thoughts and views about what's happening to the world these days...... I hope you all don't think I write about a load of crap.... I need to stop second guessing myself... If you like my blog then good... I gotta stop babbling.....
Anyways, some girls my age are caught up in texting, listening to rap music, and worst of all, be cruelly evil in every way. I am in high school. It sucks. I'm one of those people who doesn't belong to any one clique. I am simply going through the motions, taking life day by day, and secretly crushing on people from afar. On weekends, I don't attend crazy parties and play spin the bottle... in fact I've never been kissed. I read. I read ideal stories of girls like me who end up with the popular, sensitive, and surprisingly modest guys. I don't know how well I would do at a party. Would I be good at flirting with incredibly hot guys? Or would I simply let my nerves get the better of me and stand around silently like an idiot? I don't know. I don't exactly have the most impressive history with guys. I only really had one guy ask me to be his girlfriend. I said yes without thinking about any of it and the fact that I didn't actually like him... my best friend did! A few days later, he called me and I nervously told I couldn't go out with him. He is currently bisexual and looking for a boyfriend......gee, that worked out well.....
I am totally hung up about a certain crush. He is cocky and completely obnoxious in every single way imaginable. He is completely unavailable. I usually find myself with a strong dislike of any boy who thinks he is "all that". But for some unknown reason, I find that I never failed to be mesmerized by him. Just when I am ready to tell him off about his rude behavior, he gives me a particular look. A look that says "I have known you forever. I know I have a girlfriend, but I am still going to torture you with my impeccably good looks. I'm probably never going to break up with my current girlfriend, but I will give you this single look to keep you up at night with hopefulness." That rotten person. I can't get him off my mind and it disgusts me. How can I like a person who insults everything I stand for?!? This is driving me insane. There is another entirely unavailable boy on my mind. He says he is to marry his girlfriend... gaaaahhh!!! Why has every charming guy already found the love of his life?!? This is frustrating. I sound pathetic... here I am whining that I can't find a guy when there are so many tragic things happening in the world. I could be helping homeless animals or something rite now rather than sitting here whining. I'm sorry if I sound bratty. I don't mean to. I just find myself longing for companionship. I want to hold someone's hand in the hallway. And I want to have someone who will help me save homeless animals!

I'm sick of a lot of things. I'm sick of some of my friends. I am sick of facebook. I am sick of lies and being taunted. So now I am complaining. I am expressing to you all (if anyone is even reading this) a potpourri of my feelings, experiences, struggles, and sacred, honest, and modest moments I talked about earlier. I want my blog to express the confusing, horrible, and troubling things that happen in life, but also the wonderful moments and feelings of pure happiness and simplicity that makes it all worth the struggle.
-Queen of Kings